Garden Of Loooove

 i did something really bad in my past life and that is why i was curse with being destined to be the neurotic thing i am i will escape this fate though.

 i have Issues already with feeling desired and desiring, and i have already identified as aromantic, so its not really that crazy that i now feel like saying i am asexual but in truth, i dont feel l am Actually.. i say i am because i just feel i am so repulsive As  a Person, and so retarded,  that i would be Incapable of carrying out a true Successful  sexual or romantic relationship, and therefore Why Clarify that i feel attraction At All (￣﹃￣) i am able to get attached to people, and like 1 person Online who had Never Even Seen My Face confessed their love to me, but i am averse to online dating and that individual was Unstable. it doesnt really matter much, but ive for some reason been afflicted with the need to Categorize things once more..i should go back to being unlabelled honestly; much less annoying .  i started writing this like 2 days ago but i was writing it on my phone and dreamwidth led me to believe the draft had been deleted when the page reloaded so i left it alone. anyways a few unrelated thoughts : i think i gave myself food poisoning again (first time this year though (^◕.◕^) stomach still h urts ) and im contemplating whether or not i should create a new blog for posting fics (i could always just stay on ao3, but im Forever Scared)... i want to post poetry here at some point and poetry would be more fitting to go on a blog that also has my odd thoughts than yaoi buttsex.